Where there is love, there is life

So ya, there is a bunch of stuff to talk about.  First, omg I'm stressing out so bad about going back to work.  My boss is freaking out because she got a letter from my lawyer and she thinks I'm going to sue her.  Wow that worked out well....not.  I'm not supposed to talk to her about it either so I can't really calm her down. 

Secondly, wwwhhhyyy must my ankle start hurting now.  Bad timing ankle *points and makes angry face*.  Plus I ate greasy fried potatoes and now my tummy is aaaaaangry.  

But good news too!  My mate and my friend are coming to visit for a few days :D.  That'll be fun.  I'm so nervous and excited and omg. 

Now if I could just make my parents be okay with the fact that I'm in a relationship......then we'll be good to go.  Which they never will be.  Lucky me I'm not only the youngest kid....but the only daughter....hooray *rolls eyes*  just throw me in a dungeon and lock away the key. 

*sigh* I gotta be positive.  I'm getting to be with my mate again <3

Hellz ya!  Me and my mate will be at MFF 2009 :D.  Already got the room booked and I'm going to start saving money up now :3.  I am so excited.  This year I'm going for sure, no ifs ands or buts about it, I will be there with my mate.

Okay, peace

So I have a tendency for finding great enjoyment out of disgusting things....ssoooo when a large pea sized bump appeared out of nowhere on my ear I was actually a bit excited.  At first it was so painful I couldn't even touch it and it was all hot feeling.  Finally yesterday one of my friends poked it with a needle to get a bit of a hole for something to maybe come out.  They only got a tiny bit of clear/white stuff.  Well, today I decided it hurts waaaaayy too much and squeezed as hard as I could and omg.....it was full of thick green pus and also a sunflower seed sized chunk of hard white stuff.  It was sooo gross because I could hear it pop open as I squeezed it and omg...it was so gross, but so awesome.  Gross stuff just tends to make my day it seems.  Anyway, here are some pictures of where the stuff came out.  It's not that impressive now that it is pretty flattened out and cleaned out, but oh well.  Wish I had taken pictures of the gross stuff...although I think it probably would have made some people vomit.
( Gross stuff here )

So there is a new member in our family.  I have lovingly named him Vincent Van Gogh.  He was abandoned at our animal clinic yesterday because the owner no longer wanted to care for him.  His left ear was necrotic and had to be surgically removed today.  He is also underweight and wasn't cared for at all.  He also has left atrial enlargement in his heart, but the doctor felt it probably won't have any major effect on him.   I am hoping with my care he will recover quickly and can become a loving new member of the family.  Isn't he cuuuutte?
( Here is the cutie pie )

1. YOUR REAL NAME:
Kari Richter

2. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME:(mother and fathers middle names)
Lynn Steve

3. NASCAR NAME:(first name of your mother's dad, father's dad)
Wayne Arnold

4. STAR WARS NAME:(the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)
Ricka

5. DETECTIVE NAME:(favorite color, favorite animal)
Pink Gecko

6. SOAP OPERA NAME:(middle name, town where you were born)
Lynn Catlin

7. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning)
The black stone sour

8. FLY NAME:(first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name)
Kaer

9. STREET NAME:(fav ice cream flavor, fav cookie)
Vanilla Sugar

10. ROCK STAR NAME:(current pets name, current street name)
Tequila Maple

11. PORN NAME: (1st pet, street you grew up on)
Maggie Merrill

12. YOUR GANGSTA NAME:(first 3 letters of real name plus izzle)
Karizzle

13. YOUR GOTH NAME:(black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black Ophena

14. STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume/cologne, fav. candy)
Curve Reese

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D:    

I'm just not doing well at all.  I'm really having trouble finding the reasons why I keep going.  And I know I deal with it wrong...I isolate myself and am hostile when forced to be around people when I'm like this.  I want to apologize if I've ever hurt anyone when I get like that.  But I just seriously don't know what to do at this point.  If it wasn't for my pets I think I'd be done right now. 

I hurt so bad physically.  It is seriously like all of my muscles are spasming at once, like all of my joints are strained, like someone is trying to break my bones.  It really makes it hard to even function.  But I try to hide it.  I don't like people to see me weak.  It is hard to even lie in bed whenever anything I touch makes my body so painful.  But I have things I have to do....I have no choice but to force my body to work...even when it makes it impossible to do anything I really want to do...just what needs to get done.

I just don't know what to do at this point.  I want so bad to just curl up in a ball and just cry hysterically....but I can't even cry one tear...I'm numb, lifeless...I just cannot handle it.  I just...don't even know how I'm going to be able to handle the day at work tomorrow.  I just want to be alone..........

I got some fantastic news today!  I have been approved for financing to get my wisdom teeth out, which means I can get them out soon.  In fact I already set the date for the 23rd.  The bad news is it is going to hurt like hell and my face is going to be all swollen and I only have 3 days off from work before I got back :/  Bleh.  This is gonna suck.

It looks like I'm starting to get a ringworm lesion D:<  After treating these three cats at work for ringworm, it's not a surprise :/...even though I was really careful about washing my hands and all.  It definitely looks like ringworm, so I already put some antifungal cream on it and covered it with a bandage.  Hopefully I won't get any more lesions :/.  Damn it itches like crazy XO

K, that's all I have to say for today....

Hehe, don't ask....I just got bored...felt silly....yup

My list keeps growing and growing it seems.  I have a doctors appointment for more x-rays on Monday, so hopefully we'll be getting these pesky wisdom teeth out in the next few weeks.  And I really need to stop holding it off and get some serious training for Tequila.  She really is driving me nuts with her little personality changes.  I have so much to get done in the next few months...it is so stressful :/

Anyway here is the "official" list, in no particular order:

1.    Get Wisdom teeth removed
2.    Pay off wisdom teeth surgery bill
3.    Finish paying off credit card
4.    Pay off Tequila's vet bills
5.    Get a new, better paying job
6.    Finish vet assistant classes so I can get the better paying job
7.    Pay off schooling fees
8.    Pay off car
9.    Buy stuff I'll need for when I get out on my own
10.  Create a new budget
11.  Get Tequila some formal training
12.  Pay off Tequila's training bills
13.  Finish commissions, and get some new ones to help pay things off
14.  Get a new credit card for emergencies
15.  Save up some money
16.  Figure out what else I need to get done

After these last few weeks, I've witnessed so many stupid drivers and I just felt like making a list of things that frustrate me.

1.  Riding my ass
  If I cannot even see the front of your car because you are so close to me you need to back the fuck off.  Most of the time I do the speed limit or even 5 or so over....so there is no reason to be riding my ass, it won't make me go any faster and if you keep the shit up I'll brake test you....don't think I won't.  At least keep a car's length space...at least, more in bad weather.

2.  Merging onto the interstate too slow
  There is a reason they give you this long onramp....it is so you can get up to speed.  Don't sit there driving 20 or 30 mph and attempt to merge with traffic going 65!  Because when you do this I almost always have to fucking brake and sit there waiting for a slot because you ruined it for me.

3.  Driving behind me with your high beams on
  Yes I realize we are on country roads, and yes there are no cars coming towards us, but believe it or not...those are bright in my mirrors...who woulda thought.  So because you are so friggin selfish, you are going to sit there and blind me while driving behind me.  Turn the brights down!

4.  Turning without signaling
  One of the most annoying things is when someone is just driving down the road and suddenly breaks and turns without ever signaling.  There is a reason the signals are put on the car, so you can let the person behind you or around you know you are turning!  Dur dah dur

5.  Driving five or more mph under the speed limit
  Unless there is bad weather, there is just no reason for it.  All it does is block up the traffic.  So when you start driving, get up to the speed limit quickly and stay there.  Believe it or not, you will not be given a speeding ticket for driving the speed limit.

6.  Ignoring that right turn has the right away
  If you are turning left, you have to wait for the oncoming traffic.  You DO NOT have the right away.  So do not fucking cut me off and then honk at me like I did something wrong for turning right.  I HAD THE RIGHT AWAY BITCH.

Okay, I'm done.  If I talk about anymore I'll get overly irritated.  Those are the big ones. 

I tried a new recipe today and really liked it, so I thought I'd share it with ya'll

Potato and Leek Soup (with my personal modifications)

Things you need:
3 Medium potatoes, or 4 small potatoes chopped into cubes
2 Leeks chopped
1 large onion finely chopped
4 tbs. butter
2 tbs. flour
4 cups chicken stock or broth
1 tsp. celery salt
1/2 tsp. parsley
1 tbs. garlic powder
1 tbs. ground black pepper
1 cup milk

Chop off bottom and top green part of leek and dispose.  You will only be using the the white and light green part of the leek.  Then chop the leek into thin slices and cut each slice in half.  Finely chop onion.  Melt butter in large saucepan, then add the chopped onion and leek.  Sautee on medium until onions and leeks are tender.

Add flour and stir in thoroughly.  Slowly add chicken stock and continue stirring.  After adding all of the chicken stock, add potatoes and seasonings.  Bring soup to a boil, then decrease temperature and allow to simmer for 30-40 minutes or until potatoes are cooked all the way.  Add milk and stir thoroughly.  Remove from heat and serve.

Hope you guys like it.  I know I loved it :3

[x] public speaking
[ ] staying single forever
[x] Rejection
[x] being a parent
[x] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[x] closed spaces
[x] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
[x] that Scary guy...
[x] being touched
[ ] fire
[x] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[x] the ocean
[x] failure
[x] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[x] jumping from high places
[x] snow (only when I have to drive in the crap with stupid people flying around me)
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[x] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death
[ ] heaven
[x] being robbed
[x] falling
[ ] clowns
[x] dolls
[x] large crowds of people
[x] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[x] doctors, including dentists
[x] tornadoes (I've had so many close to my home)
[ ] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[x] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[x] poverty (very real possibility in the future with the economy so bad :/)
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[x] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf
[x] growing up
[x] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood ( I actually like blood XD)
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[x] high speed
[x] throwing up
[x] falling in love
[ ] super secret

Final Total: 36

If you wish to post this in your journal, it's been requested that you title it I'm afraid of __ out of 75 common fears.

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
{{{If you get 10 or less, you're fearless.}}}
People who don’t have any are liars.

I was wondering if this is doable. Currently my father is a cosigner on my car loan. In order to get him off of it, I need to pay it off. So I was wondering, is it possible for one loan company to actually purchase a car loan, y'know, like transfer the loan to a new company or something. Then maybe even refinance it so I can lower my payments and such?

I was just wondering if it is doable. I'd like to make it my own loan and lower payments somehow if I can. Actually foremost I'd like to lower the payments, to make it easier when I move.

Any help you guys can give is greatly appreciated.

thanks ahead of time.

So during my lunch break yesterday there was a very serious accident on the interstate right by where I work. A car was driving the wrong direction and hit two other cars head on. I found out today that the driver who was going the wrong direction was in fact drunk >:O. One of the people that was hit by her vehicle died and was going to be getting married soon to her fiance (who lived, but in critical condition). Of course the fucking drunk driver walked away from it. The scary thing is.....I had just come down that exact part of the interstate about twenty minutes before the accident......I don't even know what to think of that.

Right now I am just so full of rage I cannot even stand it. I'm so fucking tired of people being so selfish out driving drunk. And it seems like the drunk person almost always lives and the other people die. God I'm so sick of this bullshit. This country needs to really start cracking down on this bullshit more. I'm tired of hearing about people dying because someone else was so selfish and making stupid decisions....>:(


And people wonder why I don't let my friends and family drink and drive. Just the thought of it makes me sick.

Okay so I went to bed early due to my leg pain.  After a couple minutes my nighttime meds kicked in and I fell asleep.  Then I woke up two hours later shaking uncontrollably....could hardly even get a breath I was shaking so hard.  So I took my temperature and it was 100.6 :/.  So I went back to bed with a trash can because usually when I get shaking fevers like that I get the stomach flu :/  So anyway, time passed and I couldn't sleep...I was so hot I could hardly stand it, but without the blankets I started shaking again.  So around midnight I took my temp again and it was 101.5 :O.  What the hell is going on?  It's now 2 am. and don't even feel nauseous...basically my symptoms are ridiculous fever, head hurts, neck hurts, my muscles all over my body are tensed up...not extremely, but enough that I feel like I cannot relax, I'm off balance (not dizzy, but it's like I'm having trouble telling where my body parts are and what they are doing, so I keep stumbling), and just feel generally out of it.  I hope this isn't another one of those damn viral infections.....I hate them.  But now I cannot even stand to lay in my bed I feel like I'm going to roast to death if I stay there.  Oh well, at least the shaking has stopped....but other stuff hasn't.

It's just one thing after another.  I really don't want to go to the doctor for this, but I find it rather concerning that this high of a temperature would be caused by nothing.  There has to be something going on I would think.

Anyway, I took some ibuprofen and....................HOLY SHIT.......a tree just fell down outside.....I thought the ice storm wasn't going to get this bad :O.  Man and our Christmas lunch for work is tomorrow.  I want free food ;-;

Oh well, sorry for yet another rant.  I have to tell someone about this weirdness and obviously I'm not going to wake up my parents to tell them.

God, first this winter is really sucking so far.  It has to be the worst one in years.  Anyway, today we got four inches of snow....topped off with a nice little ice storm....great.  So I had to drive home in the dark while a sheet of ice is covering the road and my car.  All the while fucking trucks and semis are screaming past me making my car squirrel around on the road.  Just great....not only are you probably going to fly off the road....you're going to put me at risk as well.....niiiiice.

People driving like they are the only ones on the road that matter make me so upset.  If you're going to fucking drive yourself off the road I could care less....but don't put my life at risk too because you're being stupid.

GRRRRRRRR....I wanna kill someone right now >:O

Seriously guys,

I just want to say how completely awesome Lyenuv and Painwolf are.  I don't know how I got so lucky to have friends like them.  For those that don't know, they've offered me a place to stay.  I'm in a really bad situation and they knew it and offered me a way away from it.  Plus I totally love them and miss them.  I can't wait until I get to spend more time with them.  

Anyway, I just wanted to let everyone know how lucky I am to have them as friends.  Without them I don't know what I would do.  

I love you guys!